It seems like just yesterday we got engaged. But in reality it was exactly one year ago today! How time flies when you’re busy planning a wedding. And now that we’re one year later, I have just under 2 weeks left before our big day arrives!
In all honesty, this post was intended to be a helpful checklist and a glimpse into my life as I deal with those pre-event jitters. But to be perfectly honest, I haven’t really being doing much where the wedding is concerned.
As you know I’ve been dealing with adrenal fatigue since early this year. I thought I had nipped it in the bud but the reality remains adrenal fatigue isn’t something that just goes away—it’s a constant condition that flares up when certain triggers occur. If you want to learn more about what adrenal fatigue is, this article is super helpful.
For me, stress is the number one trigger which is just fabulous because planning a wedding isn’t exactly a stress-free activity. But I’ve tried to keep a cool head throughout this entire process, using checklists to keep all of my responsibilities up-to-date, delegating work to friends, family and vendors, and, ultimately in these past 2 weeks, completely checking out of the process entirely (other than the odd email here and there). I’ve compartmentalized my work from my day job, making sure to not bring it home or work insane hours. I’ve even reduced the frequency of my blog posts and Instagram posts to once a month… which for me is almost unheard of!
Despite all my best efforts, my symptoms have flared up and I’m struggling more than ever to keep it all together. I’m tired—but not just “have a nap and it will go away” tired. It’s a bone-deep exhaustion where every workout leaves me with rubbery muscles and I experience a daily mental fog that leaves me so useless I barely remember my name at the end of the day. For example, this blog post alone took me 3 hours to write when normally it would take me 2 hours max (including editing time). Since my diagnosis 6 months ago I’ve cut out caffeine entirely (decaf coffee is still in); I eat very healthily thanks to Fresh Prep; I get more than adequate amount of sleep; I exercise at least 3 times a week and make sure I get lots of fresh air thanks to dog walks.
But all of this means jacksh*t when your body is rundown and running entirely on fumes.
It’s only when you’ve hit true bottom that you realize all of the symptoms you experienced on the way down are signals from your body telling you something is wrong. Everything I described above is just my body screaming at me to stop what I’m doing and focus on my recovery. So that’s exactly what I’m doing and have been doing these past few weeks when I “should” be wedding planning. Yes, I could maybe organize one more detail for the seating chart or cross one more item off my To Do List. But there will always be that “one more thing.” So I’m going to take a deep breathe and let it go. Because at the end of the day, my health is what matters. And where the wedding is concerned, let’s face it—nobody will even notice that missing “thing” you forgot to do.